It's been a while. I wondered for a little why I never post on here anymore. And, after some thought, I must confess that it seems Xanga was for me only therapeutic in nature. I didn't really post on here just to be sociable. Sure, it had an element of that, but primarily it seems that I only posted on here either for my then quasi-girlfriend / now wife to read or as a way of getting !shite! off my mind. Of course, Xanga was awesome in that I met people like @normality_dreamer , who has become practically my sister. But essentially it was my personal venting system. But hell. o. kitty. I think it's time for an update -- not that there's much to, well, update -- but I think it's past due. This may be by last post on here, anyway. We'll see. I live in a room I built in my parents' basement with my wife of nearly three years. Not something I'm particularly happy with, but it's nice of them. Looking to get into Berea College in the fall. That's the goal, anyway. Currently doing some part-time school. No job at the moment. But you know, life is good. God is good. Still stuff I don't understand, but I've come to really "get" the fact that there are some things I perhaps never will. And I'm actually okay with that. The older I get the more I realize that the only thing in life that really matters is who you choose to love. It's not about our ideas and dreams, as much as I sometimes wish it were. But sometimes love can bring things around in ways that you can't yourself. I don't really care how talented you think you are (I'm sure you are, actually -- but that's not the point), you're not going anywhere meaningful without sacrificial love. You can have everything you ever wanted but it won't be !shite! to you in the end unless you lose yourself in love. Love people, guys. But most importantly, love God. You may think God doesn't exist. That's fine. I've been there too. And at one point I would have done everything I could to persuade you you were just a fool for thinking that someone else that's bigger than all of us is out there somewhere. But... Don't write anything off until you've looked as hard as you possibly can. Because I promise you, if you set out to find God, you will. He sure as hell (irony? - ha!) found me. I'm not crazy. At least, I don't think I am. But it's not about me. Find out for yourself. Look. I swear you'll find him. And that's about all. Find me on xbox live: AdrenalAutumn5. Pppeeaaaaaaceeee!!! "awake, my muse; awake, lyre and harp; I mean to wake the dawn"

So here it is. I got bored and did something with it. I give it a solid B. Haha, didn’t put too much effort into it.

Wake up, Wake up, dust yourself off
Wipe the sleep from your eyes and straighten your hair
Put on another smile to hide your fear
A crooked one, at best
It’s all you’ll manage
But you’ll wear it just the same

Now wipe your blue eyes
Your pretty little blue eyes
That sparkled in the sunlight like the rain

You thought he looked your way once
He must have seen you
It must have been real
But darling, he never stopped looking
You just forgot to look back
There’s more to life than you know, dear

So wipe your blue eyes
Your pretty little blue eyes
That sparkled in the sunlight like the rain

Sometimes, some nights
You’d swear you heard him in the wind
At times, alone, you feel he’s there with you
And though you pretend you imagined it all
It was all more real than anything else
His voice when everything falls away

So wipe your blue eyes
Your pretty little blue eyes
That sparkled in the sunlight like the rain

You took what was never yours
Trading a promise for a comfortable lie
That turned and left you lost and broken
You want freedom? You cry for peace?
Take my hand, let it go
Turn around and let me

Wipe your blue eyes
Your pretty little blue eyes
That sparkled in the sunlight like the rain

I’ll dry your eyes
Your pretty little blue eyes
That sparkle in the sunlight like the rain